Heartbreak and heartache

I was pointed in the direction of a news article this morning, in a nonchalant sort of way – “did you hear about the Conn grandmother? sickens me.” I went to msnbc, and this is what I found… I immediately cried my eyes out.

Now, I know things like this happen. I know it’s not right. I know it’s devastating to all involved, and seriously – nobody wants to know someone that this happens to. Why can’t we just fix it all? I feel some days like this country is running in circles, and like the safety that I counted on growing up is becoming less and less. I don’t always feel safe. Now that I have a little one, I worry about his safety probably more than I should. With an overactive imagination like I have, munchkin has been in the hospital 25 times, and has fallen off of the bike that he doesn’t even have yet.

I have been following along with the updates of a little boy named Tripp. Back in October, this precious little boy was playing at daycare when a tree limb fell on his head. He’s still in the hospital, fighting infections, fighting to live. He’s improving, but he will never be the same. My heart breaks for this family, and for all that they have and will go through. Their financial situation has been thrown into upheaval due to all of the medical bills, and because Tripp’s mom, Stacy, has been by his side from day one. They recently sold their house and purchased a new one, but of course, it needs a total overhaul so that it is Tripp-accessible. Thanks to a great foundation called Sunshine on a Ranney Day, their house will be made ready for them, just the way they need it to be.

It’s times like these that I am reminded of how lucky I am, and what a wonderful family I have. I don’t know what the future will bring; I don’t know what will happen 5, 10, 15 years down the road. I do know that I’m in a good place: I have a good job, I have a roof over my head, I have an amazing husband that supports me through everything – good, bad, ugly, stupid ankles; we have a beautiful boy that is wise beyond his years, and such a great heart. We have awesome parents that love their grandson and ignore us when they come over (which, honestly, is something I never imagined I would love – Mom, you were right. It is a great feeling to be ignored once in a while!!) because they’re enjoying playing with munchkin. We have great siblings that, though there are the occasional arguments, we know would do whatever we needed to get out of a bind. We have the ultimate support system.

We’re lucky. Very, very lucky.

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Another day…

Another few days have passed without a post, for which I apologize. I do have 7 or 8 posts started, and I will finish them. When, I don’t know; but hopefully soon. Some are comments on the news, others are topics I want to broach. But since the laptop died last week, I find it harder to update – when I get up to the bedroom, where the desktop is, I just want to sleep.

We’ll see how long it takes to get through these thoughts.

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On Jennifer Margulis’s post — Sticking my neck out

Jennifer Margulis — Sticking my neck out.

Read the above article yesterday, and my heart just split in two. I can’t believe that people would be so ignorant. When little man was born, and with all of my prenatal care, I only saw midwives. It was a conscious decision – I didn’t want to be over-attended to – and if I were put in the situation again, I would definitely make the same decision. Midwives truly made the whole experience so much more relaxed and peaceful. Hopefully Ireena Keeslar is able to avoid charges, and perhaps even do what she loves – be a midwife. Help people. Bring babies into this crazy world. I’ll hopefully be following up once new information is released.